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Cutting The Tension

Casey-Jo - Episode4

On tonight's elimination ceremony:

Maybe I'm sick of everyone fighting for airtime. Maybe I knew this is how it would be the whole time and I'm really just disappointed at myself. I wanted to leave this whole thing last night. I wish I could get some sort of support but all I can rely on is myself at the moment, and I honestly can be my own worst enemy sometimes. The tension in this house is so thick that you could cut it with a knife. Maybe I'll be sent home at tonight's elimination ceremony. We've all
packed our bags. I have a weird suspicion that they're not just sending one person home.

Maybe someone should really cut a slice of tension out of this pie. It's "crusty" as Sean says.

Hmm...maybe I'm not what they're seeking, not that personality type. Honestly, I think there are some that try too hard and are fake.

There are some that I think, hey, who are they REALLY!? They change from moment to moment. Do they know who they are? They want to give good "performances" and don't see a problem with being "over confident" and they try to act tough but are seriously weak inside and I want to just be myself. I don't know what their passions are, I don't think they have the interest in music or media or anything to do with broadcasting, and I feel that they're just here because they want
the glorified position and fame and we all want the easy route for it." Fame? Hah. I don't think this job is easy.

Maybe this "type" I speak of is what they want. And that's not me. Maybe I think too much in this house, and I don't write enough.

So yeah, maybe I'll be sent home tonight, I can only wait it out to see what happens. And if I am, I will still be Loos, and I will still have my sassy, sarcastic, s**t-eating grin on my face and I will stand proud and wish everyone else the best of luck. I will shake hands and laugh and cry and take this all in stride. I will have learned a lot about myself, about others, about this industry. I'll try to pursue the friendships I have made and the people that I've become really close with. I'll miss the opportunity so effortlessly at my fingertips and I'll miss not worrying about what day it is and how long I've been away and I'll miss the mind games and I'll miss the wicked view of Toronto. Maybe I'll just move here anyways and go to school and continue to pursue my dreams...

I miss everyone, I'm excited for the future, and I'm so very happy to be here. Live in the moment. Xoxo.

Comments

Hey Casey-Jo and friends !

Anyways, best of luck to you, I was reading up some of these blogs and i got redirected to Natalie's 'Goodbye' blog which scared the shit out of me because I thought that it was from a soon to come episode and you got eliminated. =|

Anyways, Just stating that I believe you are going to be the next Vj, you have the personality and the looks for it (Plus you will be in my little 'town' a whole lot more often) However I can only imagine how much it must suck to be away from your friends and family for so long. =/

I was thinking of starting a fansite, although that may need to be further contemplated..

Well best of luck to you, I wont bother posting my email adress seeing as there is a good chance this comment will either
A) never be read
or
B) Never be thought any more of

Once again, keep your head up, and own much music hardcore =D

Posted by: Alex at February 21, 2006 09:12 PM

Sometimes I just don't get you Casey. This week was your best performance so far, you are really starting to shine... and you talk about leaving? You are top 3. Easy. Stop thinking you don't deserve this and just reach out... and take it!

Posted by: Buddhalicious at February 22, 2006 12:40 AM

"Hmm...maybe I'm not what they're seeking, not that personality type. Honestly, I think there are some that try too hard and are fake."
This is where you differ. You are never fake, as anyone who knows you is aware. There are new fans out here that see you as you see you, real and honest. This thing shouldn't change who you are and I know it won't. It will make you stronger and wiser for sure. The greatest thing is that you know who you are and you know where you wanna go. You will achieve this and much more as time goes by and I hope that I am able to be part of that and see it all to fruitation with you!

EVERYONE SHOULD GO, EXCEPT CASEY-JO!!

Love ya TONS!!
Proud Papa

Posted by: STATION "CEDR" at February 22, 2006 02:47 AM

i know you won't get this till after but casey, you're doing awesome. yes, i've kept your room clean and yes, i'm spreading the word like it's the new testiment. i'm all about a casey fan club. sign me up!

erik's a dolt though. ugh. you'll see it when they let you watch these.

anyways, i love you. do good. you're making us all proud.

Posted by: casey's song at February 22, 2006 03:26 AM

-Rests head on compter-

Mmm, Cereal.. Oh right, Alright the fan club is a go. I just need the time to design the page/sign up for the forums and then we are up and running. Such loving support from family and friends, Casey you are one lucky girl. I am.. Finishing homework, then off to the ingenious time waster called school. Speacking of which, im late for it now..

Alright well I will keep you guys updated. =D

Your forum-happy poster,
Alex

Posted by: Alex at February 22, 2006 07:34 AM

Well. Forum purchased. Now im awaiting the verification and then We can get going =)

Im also taking a bit of an unauthorized break from school, to finish some work that has a much more important purpose.

It must be extremely frustrating for Casey not being able to really even keep in contact with her friends/family. Everything monitored =| I think I would die.

Ah well, She has to win, I cant see anyone else taking the place of VJ. Id go through my list of flaws for everyone else, however I would be chased down by thousands of girls who believe Tim is the hottest think since the sun.

I look forward to monday, and the next episode of VJ. Its weird, knowing that Im leaving messages for someone on television =P

Posted by: Alex at February 22, 2006 08:56 AM

Ya MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK. Good song!!

Posted by: Allen182 at February 23, 2006 12:34 AM

casey jo..... casey jo... tine bop here, how ya holding up babe? you're doing great and are coming across on the air as nothing but yourself and real. you have absolutlely nothing to worry about honey!! me and the head cheese monzy are holdin the fort down for ya babe, we all miss you and are so proud of you. there's even a "vote for casey jo on much" poster in the salon. will post soon and keep us all updated babe!! WE LOVE YOU!!!

tine bop over and out

Posted by: tinebop at February 23, 2006 02:14 PM

hey casey don't worry about the hair I'm actually watch that eposide rite now and I'm hoping you get the job your a wild one xoxo keep cheery love ya add my msn ozzy-six-dogg@hotmail.com

Posted by: sixer at February 27, 2006 08:33 PM

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